Automatic Psychosomatic
5 days have gone by since my first insemination. It feels like 5 months. I knew this was the deal though, a nerve racking 2 week wait where every day and minute up until I take that pregnancy test will be over-analyzed and over inspected. I’ve still been taking my morning temperature, I felt like sticking to a routine. It’s been well above the 96.5 average it was before insemination. Could this mean pregnant? Or could this just mean it’s freaking hot in our bedroom? The nervous belly never really went away like I said it did. I was trying to convince myself I wasn’t nervous. I’ve been taking naps in the afternoon since Friday – way too soon to blame that on pregnancy right? It was a stressful week with juggling the school semester coming to an end, my birthday, the insemination and my job. I’ve been just overwhelmed and naturally that will make anyone tired. My breasts have been sore and seem a tiny bit bigger but seriously Chris, TOO SOON! HA I blame the progesterone. That’s the most logical reason. I have to stop myself from over inspecting and over thinking. How can I do that? Shannan has read two books since Wednesday and all I do is lay around and wait… I mean, I’m not literally always just laying around… I do stuff… But in my head, I’m thinking.. could I be pregnant, is that a symptom, what if I’m pregnant, huh, huh, huh? Just in case, I’ve cut out all caffeine, it’s just juice and water for me from now on. I’m staying away from sushi, cold cuts, undercooked meats, and fancy soft cheeses that may be unpasteurized. I’m eating like a horse though. I’m freaking hungry as I type this and wondering what I should fix myself to eat. I really want a glass of milk. I had milk with my spaghetti last night, that’s kind of gross if you think about it, isn’t it? But I really liked it 
Let’s change the subject! My sister is starting her own photography business. She’s most excellent at portraits… she takes the perdiest baby pictures ever. Look, I didn’t really change the subject. It went right back to babies! At any rate, you should LIKE Little Feather Photography on FB.
Okay, back to me – I need to really calm down. I’m building my hopes up so high that if I find out I’m not actually pregnant, I’m going to fall super hard. It’s only the first try, odds are against me. But I’ve always been super lucky at things. I really have. Could this be one of those times?
