Maybe Baby is toying with us
I can’t sleep in today. Shannan is snug in bed and I just couldn’t lay there any longer. As you might guess, today makes it two weeks since I was inseminated for the second time. Throughout these whole two weeks I have been convinced that I’m not pregnant. There’s been no signs, nothing… just the usual symptoms that I attribute to my progesterone. I’ve been feeling super crampy too for the past couple of days but I’m not really spotting. Which is odd because I usually spot by now.. but again, progesterone stops that. I’ve been growing impatient and have been super nuts, counting down till I can officially test but the cramps were worrying me. Thursday I decided to again, test too early. I’m a glutton for punishment. Of course it said “not pregnant”. I told myself, eh it’s too early, you knew it would be negative, wait till Saturday. So, as for today’s test, I still didn’t really have big hopes that it would say otherwise.
I woke up at 6am. Took my temperature – 97.70. Not really that high, not really a sign of pregnancy. But I am sleeping in air conditioning now. At any rate, I peed on the stick, I waited three minutes, I looked at it and what did I see? I don’t freaking know! Am I crazy? Is my mind playing tricks on me? The slightest, faintest, second pink line appeared. What does that mean? I could barely see it, I had to hold it under the light of the window to double check. I’ve looked at it a thousand times by now and yes, there is a barely visible second line there for sure. Shannan couldn’t see it at first, I told her to adjust her eyes to the light and try again.. finally, she saw it too! Maybe we’re both crazy? Are we pregnant? I can’t tell!!! I still have cramps, AF feels like she is threatening but just maybe just maybe, my hCG hormones are just a tad low right now and I will have to retest either tomorrow or Monday. This is killing me.
I know it’s so barely there, I know.. but what do you think? It’s very hard to tell with these pictures, but trust me, in person, the second line is more visible.